"Every soul shall have a taste of death: And only on the Day of Judgment shall you be paid your full recompense. Only he who is saved far from the Fire and admitted to the Garden will have attained the object (of Life): For the life of this world is but goods and chattels of deception." (Al Imran Chapter 3 verse 185)

Saturday, December 30, 2006


Asalamu alaykum warahmatullahi wabarakatu

I know it’s late but what the hey!

Eid Mubarak ya Jami’un Muslimeena wal Muslimati!!!
Yea….I’m trying my Arabic out. I hope that was correct!

Ya Allah grant us your mercy in this world and in the hereafter
Ya Allah strengthen our iman and increase our understanding
Ya Allah make the Muslims as one and increase us in our love for each other
Ya Allah make us of the ones who enjoin good and forbid the evil……ameen ya Rabbil 'alameen!

And for my brothers and sisters across the world who are facing difficulties and hardships. May Allah grant you ease in your affairs. May you remain patient in these hard times and may your iman be strengthened. May you remain steadfast in your 'ibaadah…….ameen ya Rabbil 'alameen!

Ya Allah forgive the sins of my parents and my grandparents, of the Mu’mineenah and Mu’minat and Muslimeenah and Muslimat. Ya Allah grant mercy to those that you have died and protect them from the punishment of the grave for You are the most Merciful, Ar-Rahmanu Raheem. Ameen thuma ameen!

May Allah accept the Hajj of the millions of Muslims in Makkah al Mukaramah. May Allah grant us the ability to perform this blessed pilgrimage atleast once in our lifetime...ameen

Kulu 'amuun wa antum bil kheyr!


Sunday, December 24, 2006

Ring the alarm…the situation is lacking Islam.

I take a deep breath and stare into the horizon. The grey sky is above me and the soles of my feet rest on the cold concrete below. Thoughts fill my mind like the psychedelic colours of the seventies. Whirling round and round on a wheel of fortune and I hold my breath waiting for the it to stop. Where would it stop……what would fate hand us this time?

Ethiopia has started air raids on Somalia. Yea….more poor people are losing their lives. A civil war that has been going on for 16years. Now though it is called Jihad. The interim government and the UIC are now the centre of attention. One wants to rule by Islam and the other wants to rule. Ok…I might be coming out in favour of the UIC but they have made the most visible changes in the region. The streets are cleaner, khad is banned and they are trying to abolish tribalism. The Somalis in Somalia for once actually looked happy and content. The place was starting to look a country and less like an abandoned land. People were migrating back…..
I know there is a fear that the UIC might turn into the next Taliban. Banning anything and everything….but I don’t think they will turn into the Taliban. I think most of the bad press that has been surrounding them has been propaganda. I don’t mean that all they do is justified. They are some people with twisted morals flying under the banner of Islam. You can’t expect everyone to be perfect and on the moral high horse. There will always be the good, the bad and the ugly.
The fear is that this war is gonna become a full out war that affects the neighbouring countries to Somalia. Ethiopia is already involved and because of the political tension that’s rife in all of East Africa…..other countries in the region might get involved. This might turn into a Muslim vs. other war. It was a stupid move to have Ethiopia involved in this. Somalis are sensitive where Ethiopia is concerned…..they are a sore wound where Somalia is concerned. Having them support the interim government means rubbing salt on the wound causing most to turn against the government. The problems should have been sorted without outside influence. If a mediator was necessary then a less controversial figure (not Ethiopia) should have been appointed.

The African union has been trying to sort the political situation in Sudan. The UN wants to get involved; the West wants to interfere once again to sort out the problem of the people of the East. After all we are not civilised to sort out our own problems. Problems caused by the borders created by the ‘civilised world’ and maintained by the leaders of the ’uncivilised’

The thorn in every Muslim's Olmert has approved 100million for Palestine…..makes you wonder why the sudden generosity. I mean the Hammas leader was refused entry to his country just a few days ago because he was carrying money for his country. By the way he was a leader who has been democratically elected. But democracy only works when it is approved by Israel and the West, because the rest of the world is lacking the ‘skills’ in making such important decisions. So, back to giving the money to Abbas….they are trying to turn Hammas and Fatah against each other.

Lebanon has protesting to have Senora step down. They have had enough….they don’t need someone who just bum licks to the west. A Labrador aint fit as a leader. They have woken up and smelt the manure….their nasal tracts are opening up and the smell is foul. Something needs to be done.

Then there is the unanimous UN vote that sanctions should be imposed on Iran. Of course because they are thinking with their own mind and they want to enjoy the luxury of feeling secure. But what were they thinking? This is a privilege that only Israel can enjoy in this region because the rest are unable to make civilised decision.
In Iraq it’s the same story of Sunni and Sh’ia fighting. One thing they do have in common is that they don’t want outside influence. The occupation must pack up and leave…..

What do all these countries share? They have been turned against each other by the ones who have vested interests. The case of Somalia, Iraq and Sudan it is the ever volatile oil. And in Iran, Palestine and Lebanon it is the national security of Israel that is at risk. Muslims cannot be defeated from outside; the only way to break them is from the inside and this is happening. Our iman is low and aqeedah practically non-existent because of the many outside influences. We are loosing it people and we are loosing it bad. These problems are self made…it is because we weakened our foundation and barriers that the cracks are turning into breaks. The building might topple if we are not careful. And then what?

The solution is simple the implementation is the problem. We need to work on our aqeedah as an ummah. We need to strengthen ourselves….only then can we fight the enemy. And only then can we envision victory.
InshaAllah kheyr!


Friday, December 15, 2006

Pointless Surveys

Begs the question as to why I am doing this if it so pointless.....coz I am liking the feeling of pointless....jeez....can't a sista catch a break *kisses teeth*

1) Single, Taken, or Crushing? Not single…that would imply I’m looking…we can’t have that

2)Are you happy with who you are? Yep, alhamdulillah

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast? Nah…I trip and get up fast to brush myself off

4) Have you ever had your heart broken? Not literally….that’s why I can still type this :D

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok? Hell nah…not ok

6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? Plenty of flesh on the streets brotha

7) Have you talked about marriage with another person? When you are girl who ‘has come of age’ like myself….it creeps up without choice…

8) Do you want children? Hell yea….but I don’t know how I’d manage that without the hubby (at least in a halal way…)

9) How many? As many as Allah blesses me with….

10) Would you consider adoption? Of course….but I would like some of my own, so I can point and laugh and say "ha-ha! You got my short fingers!”

11) What do you think is a cool way for your special someone to let you know they care? Romanticisms....eeww….dnt make me puke...

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get? Well I leave plenty 2 the imagination by covering up from head to toe…and I lower my gaze….is that hard enough?

13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating? The “game” if I knew what that was I would be implying I date....we don't wanna do that...

14) Do you believe love at first sight exists? Pheromones at first that I believe!

15) What is one thing you wish you knew about the opposite sex? Ummm, nothing in particular.....really

16) Do you believe that you can change someone? Relationship orientated questions….why must everything be about relationships?

17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object? Outdoors on a beach off the East African coast......with all my family and friends making dua for me outside under the blue African sky......

18) Do you have feelings for someone right now? No! Praise Allah

.19) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you couldn't? Oh yeah, did that...he was in my head….too perfect....couldn't possibly be a reality....

20) Have you ever broken a heart? Probably…with my blessings…who knows ;)?

21) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other? Nah….they can have them

22) Last person you hugged? My maternal aunt, that I call mom and also live with

23) Last person to call you? My brother

24) When was the last time you felt stupid? Now.

25) Who was the last person you danced with? I was entering my room!

26) Who did you last yell at? I don't yell at people….I talk diplomatically…or punch walls.

1. Have you had any relationships this year? Nah....what you take me for?

2. Have you had your birthday yet? Yea…

3. Cried yet? Yea….I cry when I’m happy, sad, overwhelmed…..and all of that has happened this year

4. Been on a diet? A what?

5. Pulled an all nighter? Fo’ sho’

6. Drank Starbucks? Couple of times…..mostly drank Nero…

7. Went Camping? Mmm.….nah

l8. Bought something? My lunch 2day

9. Met someone special? Now special refers to many things….which one do you mean exactly?

10. Been out of state? We don’t have states in England but I did leave the Northwest to go to the South…..oh yea…I went to Africa…

11. Gone snowboarding? Not in England……or Africa...

12. What are you thinking about? I need to have a hot shower....

13. Hugged someone? This year? I think I broke a record….

14. slept in someone else’s bed? I‘m assuming the bed I slept in while in away from home was someone else’s...

15. Any alcohol? Astaghfurullah……nah man

16. Loaned out money? Loan? Dnt knw...memory of a fish…can’t keep up....

17. Gotten in a car accident? Alhamdulillah, no.…..not fond of them…

18. Gone over your cell phone bill? If I was on rental…probably…that’s why I’m avoiding it actually….

19. Been called a whore? I think I've avoided that my whole life……

20. Done something you regret? Every day, baby…everyday…..

01. Hometown? Born in Nairobi, Kenya

02. Natural hair colour? Red/brown…..I’m not sure

03. Initials? F

04. Hair style? Hijab….

05. Eye colour? Very dark brown…practically black…

06. Height: 5'5"…that said….I’m 2centimetres of 5’6”

07. Pets: Zilch…and that's not the name of my pet

08. Mood: Giggly/jokey/a lil’ contemplative…

09. Where would you rather be? Many places at once…..

10. Last thing you drank? Water

01. Have you ever been in love? Define in love….

02. Do you believe in love? Love for the sake of Allah (SW)?…sure…

03. Have you ever been heartbroken: Didn’t we cover that already?

04. Have you ever broken someone's heart: Come on, now…..I have a bad memory...but not that bad.....

05. Have you ever fallen for your best friend? Now if I did….I‘ll have to come out of the closet…..since there is no closet, then it would be safe to assume that I haven’t

06. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? All the time....I try 2 keep it halal…u feel me…

07. Are you afraid of commitment? Are you afraid of yo mamma?

08. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life? Refer to the question above.

09. Are you missing someone right now? I’m always missing someone as I live away from home….

10. Are you eating anything? I love the way this comes under love life……..yea…a banana….lol, am kidding…nothing actually….was though…biscuits…

I tag whoever can spare the time 2 do this.....


Tuesday, December 05, 2006

My Father

A fatherhood celebration being held on the 15th of December is causing me to reminisce. It has made me realise that this is one of the things we are lacking (especially in our community). We seem to devote lot of time appreciating our mothers (and quite rightly so), but in rushing to praise our mothers we tend to neglect our fathers.

As a daughter I tend to empathise more with my mother because I have seen the physical and emotional pain that a mother goes through for her children. My mama carried me and my siblings for 9mnths and has taught me a lot of life skills.

My father did not carry me for 9mnths (if he did he would probably be named as one of the wonders of the world....lool) but I can assure you that he went through his own mental and physical hurdle with our births (I witnessed this when my baby brother was born). As a child in kindergarten my baba was this kind man who always found the time to answer my many questions (and there were many questions....believe me!) and indulge my imagination. As my mother taught me the practical things in life my baba was grooming me mentally. At the age of three I remember him giving me kids section of the Sunday Nation (a news paper in Kenya) as he read up on the current affairs in the world.....I would be sitting next to him, imitating his pose and reading up on the current of affairs of what was then my world (the adventures of Tin Tin and Denis the Menace.....I was an early developer). I remember when he used to correct my mispronunciations of words such as nation which I would read natyon.....loool. One of my fondest memories is my baba buying me my first novel at the age of seven (David Copperfield by Dickens....published by Penguin) which I read with his help and a dictionary.

As I reached the ages of 8 to 11, my father employed other ways of teaching me about the world. Since I was the eldest my father decided to teach me about responsibility, tolerance and patience. At the time I wasn’t fond of his methods as I believed they interfered with whatever life I had. I was to do chores (even though we had a maid), I had to look after my sibling whenever we went out without my parents (I used think it was a curse being the mentality was why me?) and I was also to lead by example (this was just too exhausting as I had to think twice about everything I would my sibling perceive it?). I started resenting my father for this no nonsense tough approach..........I just started thinking that he didn’t understand me :(

During my teenage years I lived away from home (which was kinda tough) but I have to say that these years have made me who I am. This was the perfect medium for me to put into practice all that I had learnt from my father and mother. As I grew I hated the fact that I had lost the childhood bond that I had with my father ( I remember the days when I used to curl next to him in the morning before work and just talk.....he always listened to me attentively even though I was two or three and probably talking nonsense). In the last ten years I have come to appreciate my father a lot more. I have come to realise (alhamdulillah) that even though at times I thought that he was singling me out, he was only after my best interest. Those that love you are the ones that tell you about your faults......this is so true. A few years ago when I went back home (first time in seven years) I remember watching television with my little sister when an advert came on. It showed this little three year old that dropped one of her wooden toys in a miniature water hole (I think). The girl wanted to get her toy back but the hole was too deep, so she walks away (at this point you think she has given up) but she comes back with a container filled with stones which she drops one by one in the hole. Soon the water rises and she gets her toys :) As we are watching this my sister turns to me and says "every time abo sees this video he says that she reminds him of you". I was grinning like there was no tomorrow :D in fact I grin every time I remember this......

My baba has taught me a lot about kindness, tolerance, patience, self control......He has always remained calm through any adversity (it is a rare sight to see my father without a hair in place whatever the circumstance). He has taught me to keep my trust in a Higher power. When I realised this I wrote him a letter of appreciation. Boy was it an essay......all ten pages of it. It was time my father knew how I felt about him and how much he means to me. After receiving this letter he called me and we had the longest phone conversation in the history of my father....loool, it was pleasant. I have realised that my father loved me from the moment he felt me move inside my mama..........this is a feeling that I can’t put into words....

Now as an adult, my father is my advisor and confidante. He is my best friend......the one that never fails to calm me down. Although he hasn't lost that look of authority that intimidates everyone (including me)......I have just learnt to interpret that look as wisdom (it is all about perception at the end of the day...). In my family my mother is the fiery one while my father is like the rain on a hot summer and refreshing :)

I thank Allah for giving me the opportunity to know such a great man and for granting me the ability to show my appreciation......alhamdulillahI pray that Allah rewards my parent for all the hard work they have done on our behalf. I pray that Allah keeps them with us for many years to come and grants them Janatul Firdows.

Thank you Paradise for reminding me of what a great man my father is......jazakillah kheyran