"Every soul shall have a taste of death: And only on the Day of Judgment shall you be paid your full recompense. Only he who is saved far from the Fire and admitted to the Garden will have attained the object (of Life): For the life of this world is but goods and chattels of deception." (Al Imran Chapter 3 verse 185)

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Ok…..I have procrastinated enough….it’s time I answered Dreamer's tag. So I have to name 6 weird things about me……….here goes.

Each player of this game starts with the “6 weird things about you”. People who get tagged need to write a blog post of their own 6 weird things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names (Sunshine).

1. I talk in four different accents (a Somali, Kenyan, English and American accent) , sometimes find it difficult to understand what I say because I also mumble while speaking. From time to time one accent inhibits my body and I would end up using that accent for a while……..

2. I can’t walk around barefooted in the house……I get this weird feeling on the soles of my feet if I walk around without slippers. I don’t feel comfortable wearing normal shoes in the house so they have to be slippers that I wear…..and by slippers I mean ‘dacas’ (or thick socks……but that’s a last resort). My mama says that I was like ever since I was a toddler (whenever my mama would want me to sit somewhere still she would just take my shoes…..which guarantees that I wouldn’t move from my spot).

3. I like my room to stay the same (organised chaos)……after I clean my room I don’t feel comfortable unless there is a little bit of untidiness. I like this way because I can think clearly (as my mind tells me that my room is homely), for some reason…..I find things easier among the organised chaos than when everything is neat.

4. I have a knack for knowing when something is on my mama’s mind (I’m sure you are now saying, so does every other child) but here is the weird thing , my mama and I live on 2 different continents….an ocean and thousands of miles separates us. Still, I always get this unsettling feeling and a need to call home, when I hear mama’s voice the first I ask her is “is everything ok maa?”. It’s a connection we have had since I can remember…….

5. I don’t how to use a spoon when eating rice or thick desserts, I use a fork instead (however when having cereal I can comfortably use a spoon). When am at home I can only use a fork with a plastic end……a fork with a metal end makes me feel as though something is crawling inside my palm.

6. Which brings me to number six, I go through these phases where the oddest things make me feel as if I want to be physically sick or get goose bumps . For example, I went through a phase where when I used a blue biro pen I felt physically sick……….

Hope the ride wasn't too bumpy :)

I tag:

White African
Weary Nomad

Although.....whether the tagged would reply is something else.....inshaAllah kheyr!


Monday, November 20, 2006

Its a love thang!

Common feat Mary J. Blige - Come Close

It's just a fly love song, what

[Mary J:]

It's just a fly love song, what

[Verse: Common]
Are we living in a dream world?
Are your eyes still green girl?
I know your sick and tired of arguing
But you can't keep it bottled in
Jealousy, we got to swallow it
Your heart and mind baby follow it
Smile, happiness you could model it
And when you feel opposite
I just want you to know
Your whole being is beautiful
Im going to do the best I can do
Cause i'm the best when i'm with you

[Chorus: Mary J. Blige]
Come close to me baby
Let your love hold you
I know this world is crazy
What's it without you

[Verse: Common]
Put down your bags love
I know in the past love
Has been sort of hard on you
But I see the God in you
I just want to nurture it
Though this love may hurt a bit
We dealing wit this water love
You even give my daughter love
I want to build a tribe wit you
Protect and provide for you
Truth is I can't hide from you
The pimp in me
May have to die with you


I know what you're thinking,
you're on my mind
You're right, you're right, you're right
You promise so fast you just might take flight
Hope your not tired, tonight, tonight

[Verse: Common]
You help me to discover me
I just want you to put trust in me
I kind of laugh when you cuss at me
The aftermath is you touching me
It's destiny tthat we connected girl
You and I we can affect the world
I'm tired of the fast lane
I want you to have my last name


[Bridge (2x)]

I really like this song. it's a beautiful love song and the video is so simple (which is the beauty of it). Common is one of my fav artists. there are some classic tracks of his I was going to post but I went with this instead......I just felt like a feel good song (and this always does the trick).
Hope y'all enjoy it as much as I did and do.......


Thursday, November 16, 2006


Ok……I have to keep it real. I miss being fit. I miss being able to touch my toes effortlessly. I miss being able run a couple of miles without panting. Bottom line…..I miss dancing.

I’m scientist ( u knw those supposedly calculation dependant individuals I kwn I don't talk like one...) but I have this arty side that not many people knw about. It’s like I am leading a double life….my straight a** boring science life and this other side which wants to leap, bust some crank moves and do the split. Yea…I’m talking about dancing. It has been a passion of mine since I was in diapers (even my momma would tell u dat). I used to shake my diaper clad a** to the latest tune since the beginning of me. Then when Bobby Brown and Mc Hammer came out with the running man in the early 90’s I was right in there doin my thang. I love to dance, dancing brings out the best in me. I aint talking about dance on a professional level, but just dancing for fun, you knw. Being able to just move and go with the flow. Being able to have people who share the same passion. Being able to……..just dance!

I been searching for dance classes all up in this here city. I haven’t found any female only classes. Not that I mind having handsome guys with fit bodies lifting me up but…..being a Muslimah I gotta make sacrifices and abstain from such worldly desires ….. You feel me!

However, first things first. Before I start leaping without perfecting my walk. First on the agenda is joining a gym (if not…then employing an exercise regime which gives the same benefit without the gym pass) and sorting out my anaemia. Because however physically fit I get…I would always be out of breath if my blood count aint close to normal (out of everything…bringing my blood count back to normal would be my most difficult task). I will still keep searching for an all female dance class and until I find one I would be practicing some moves….maybe get a video so I can get my old moves back. It’s been close to 4yrs since I seriously performed a piece….so you can imagine how rusty I am. I basically need to start from scratch and that aint gonna be easy but inshaAllah kheyr.

So this is what is going to be on my agenda for a while. I’m kinda excited so hopefully this is not some short lived thing. I knw most people would be like girl what you doin dancing? This would probably come from my Somali/Muslim community. But check it here…I aint dancing for no man. I be doin this for myself. Something to keep me physically fit…. But hey…..I gotta do what I gotta do! To hell with everybody else.



Sunday, November 12, 2006

The Roots ft. Erykah Badu - You Got Me

The lyrics

[Chorus] x 2

(Erykah Badu)
If you were worried 'bout where
I been or who I saw or
what club I went to with my homies
baby don't worry you know that you got me

[Verse 1]

(Black Thought)
Somebody told me that this planet was small
we use to live in the same building on the same floor
and never met before
until I'm overseas on tour
and peep this ethiopian queen from philly
taking classes abroad
she studying film and photo flash focus record
said she workin on a flick and
could my click do the score
she said she loved my show in paris
at elise momarre
and that I stepped off the stage
and took a piece of her heart
we knew from the start that
things fall apart, intentions shatter
she like that shit don't matter
when I get home get at her
through letter, phone, whatever
let's link, let's get together
shit you think not, think the Thought went home and forgot
time passed, we back in philly now she up in my spa
tellin me the things I'm tellin her is makin her hot
startin buildin with her constantly round the clock
now she in my world like hip-hop
and keep tellin me

[Chorus] x2

[Verse 2]

(Black Thought)
Yo, I'm the type that's always catchin a flight
and sometimes I gotta be out at the height of the night
and that's when she flip and get on some 'ol

Another lonely night
seems like I'm on the side you only loving your mic
I know you gotta get that paper daddy keep that shit tight
but yo I need some sort of love in my life, you dig me
while politicin with my sister from new york city
she said she know this ball player and he think I'm pretty
sike, I'm playin boo, you know it's just wit you I'm stayin boo
and when cats be poppin game I don't hear what they sayin boo
when you out there in the world, I'm still your girl
with all my classes I don't have the time for life's thrills
so when you sweatin on stage think of me when you rhyme
and don't be listenin to your homies they be leavin you blind

(Black Thought)
Yeah, so what you sayin I can trust you?

Is you crazy, you my king for real

But sometimes relationships get ill

No doubt

[Chorus] x2

[Verse 3]

(Black Thought)
Thet snake could be that chick
and that rat could be that cool cat
that's whispering "she tryin to play you for the fool Black"
if something's on your chest then let it be known
see I'm not your every five minutes all on the phone
and on the topic of trust, it's just a matter of fact
that people bite back and fracture what's intact
and they'll forever be I ain't on some "oh I'm a celebrity"
I deal with the real so if it's artificial let it be
I've seen people caught in love like whirlwinds
listening to they squads and listening to girlfriends
that's exactly the point where they whole world ends
lies come in, that's where that drama begins, she like

[Chorus] until fade

Just thought I'd share this song from tow of my fav artists. hope you enjoy!

By the way you guys...I'm ok alahmdulillah. The only thing that is wrong with me so far is the fact that I am very anaemic. But this is somehing that is curable alahmdulillah. Thanks alo and jazakumullahu kheyran for the dua everyone.


Monday, November 06, 2006

Health concerns......

Winter has come back with a vengeance. The price we pay for having the kind of summer that we did. It’s freezing. Although I was eagerly awaiting winter (hot seasons aren’t my favourites as I can’t take the heat contradictory because I’m African….oh well) I have to say so far it hasn’t been productive. Mainly because I cant breathe because the cold inflames my nasal canal and because of these persistent headaches I have been having.

I went to see my physician on Tuesday and discussed my headaches with her. She asked me if I have been under some stress recently or if I’m drinking enough water and if I wear my spectacles as is should. My answer was simple…I am not under any extra stress apart from day to day grind and I am also drinking at least two litres of water a day. The only other thing is I don’t wear my specs as often but that has never been a problem.
My physician was actually very concerned about my headaches and ordered for me to have a blood test which would test for my fasting glucose level, a full blood count, thyroid, blood sodium levels and cholesterol level.

Friday I had my blood test and I will get my results on Wednesday. It takes ten to fourteen days to get the results usually but I have been given priority. I also I have to book an appointment with my optician to rule out the likelihood of strain caused from my bad eyesight. Till then I don’t have much to do except swallow painkillers. I have to take this migraine pill and standard painkillers all at the same time (to say that I’m not worried would be an understatement but I’m taking it in my stride…I just pray that whatever it is that is wrong with me Allah grants me the patience to deal with it). My main concern is getting addicted to the painkillers because between Tuesday evening and Friday morning I have finished a 16pack coupled with half a strip of migraine pills (and I’m not the type of person fond of taking medicine be it pill or a syrup).

So yeah, I am walking around in a zombie state and why I’m I going to work? I need some normalcy in my life and if I stay at home I focus more on the pain. Plus the people at work are currently taking it easy on me…bless them. But inshaAllah kheyr…whatever it is Ar-Rahman would get me through it inshaAllah. Bi’ithnillah.
Come Wednesday I will find out what is wrong inshaAllah. Till then keep me in your dua.