Things

So…it has been a very wet week….mashaAllah a lot of baraka, alhamdulillah. Been busy trying to sort out stuff that needed sorting out….hopefully my efforts would prove fruitful inshaAllah.

Still waiting on details for the course that I applied to….if all goes to plan it should arrive through the post on Monday inshaAllah…then I would know if they have accepted me or not. Make some dua for me guys coz I really want this. InshaAllah kheyr.

What is going on?
-Well one friend is busy with wedding planning…..been trying to get hold her, so if you read this before I get hold of you…call me! You know who you are! And no……I’m not in hiding…..at least not intentionally.
-Three others flew to Bangladesh this Friday. I hope they have a great time and come back safe to us inshaAllah.
-Another one is in France for a week.
-A few others are basking in the sun in Egypt.

Me? I am stuck in England…anxious about my course application….anxious about getting a job…..anxious about the amount of student debt I am going to acquire while studying. Owing money scares the hell out of me but inshaAllah kheyr.
Another reason I am also stuck here is the several appointments that I have. Had my follow consultation on Friday, and alhamdulillah it was good news. There is only 7% of damage in my stomach and it is reversible but only if I stick to the diet plan. I have an appointment with the dietician in two weeks (inshaAllah) to devise that plan. Two months from now (inshaAllah) I have a bone scan to review the density of my bones; people with my condition usually have a calcium deficiency which causes weak bones. In four months time inshaAllah) I have another follow up with the consultant to see how the diet is going and if I still need to be on medication.
On top of that I need to sort out my student papers and that might take four weeks or so

Once I stop being anxious and get the money I am going away on holiday somewhere and taking a well deserved chill pill. inshaAllah

Make dua for me guys!
Also make dua for everyone going through hard times (I know I will be inshaAllah)

Till next time….whenever that is…..inshaAllah kheyr

Yin and Yang

You know when sometimes you have a grim outlook of the future without even realising it. Until an alternative route to your goal shows itself and you realise how much you were searching for one. Then without knowing you rest most of your hope on this different route whilst knowing that there’s a 70%-30% chance you will make it……30% being the chance you might make it. You sleep dreaming of the possibilities and even though you know you might fall really hard if it doesn’t go your way.
So why I’m I doing this to myself?

On a more positive note…..I just received some fantastic news....totally unrelated but brilliant news nonetheless. Just as I was typing this. Guess this is Allah’s way of telling me the future is not so grim after all

Alhamdulillah ’ala kuli 7al

InshaAllah kheyr

I see Changes!

Changes……lately I have been surrounded by them. It seems every time I turn someone throws one at me. 2007 so far has been something.

I am having difficulty keeping up. It seems everything is moving around me while I stand stagnant …stuck in waist length mud which is keeping me motionless. I don’t even know how I feel about these changes…I haven’t allowed myself time to think about them. Why? Haven’t thought about that either.

I am always telling everyone that they should embrace change but I seem to be having some difficulty with that. It is easy to see what is right in other people’s situations but when it comes to me…I seem to store everything in the back of my mind where cobwebs seem to have grown because I hardly pay it a visit. Think outside the box…easier said than done.

Methinks it’s high time I knock on THAT door and have conversations with the Almighty; I don’t think my iman is where it should be right now.

Anyway…alhamdulillah ‘ala kuli hal

InshaAllah kheyr